Holidays can be days with more, less or different work or they can be days to be refreshed. I’m trying to figure out what exactly refreshes me. What makes life seem even better?
Yesterday I had moments of feeling refreshed when I was thinking about what changes I would make in the schoolwork I give the kids. If insanity is doing the same thing over and over again hoping for a different result, then refreshment comes with making changes and knowing that different results are possible. Maybe I can reduce a bit of the day to day struggles.
Today I felt refreshed when I had a conversation with a friend, and as I drove away afterwards I had a sense of joy. I felt pleased because the conversation connected me with so much of who I am. Living day to day with my children complaining because they don’t like supper or they want me to do something with them, I find myself forgetting who I am. Getting out and talking, I remembered my love of history, and how I used to work at a historic site. I remembered the newspaper office I grew up in and the fleeting thoughts I have that perhaps someday I’ll try my hand at journalism. I remember that I believe in trying to join the public conversations about the ethical questions of our day, and that I have things to offer. I’m not the academic I wish I was. I’m not a great housekeeper. I’m not a professional anything, but there’s hope for tomorrow being a little bit easier than today, and the “me” that I am made up of includes some successes and good things, not just my failings.
What refreshes you?